this is IT!!!

What’s up ya’ll!  So I want to talk about something pretty crucial.  I hit on it just a little in my “Intro” blog (go read it if you haven’t)  but now let’s get dirty!  Let’s talk about FEAR and how it fucks up everything and everybody.  Shit bout to get real.

First let’s define “fear”…

According to dictionary.com fear is defined as

Noun. ¹ a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.

Another definition is from en.oxforddictionaries.com…

Noun. ¹ an unpleasant emotion caused by the threat of danger, pain, or harm.

² a feeling of anxiety concerning the outcome of something or the safety of someone

Verb.   ¹ avoid doing something because one is afraid.

I’m pretty sure a lot of us can relate to all of these definitions of fear.  But I will just speak about myself.  Fear has fucked me up PLENTY of times.  I am scared of just about every damn thing because I think too damn much (I’m a Capricorn 🙂 ). I will think, overthink, rethink, make up a million of scenarios of what could go wrong, stress myself to limits over something as simple as which route to take to my mom’s house!  LOL!  The shit is real. So you can imagine how my mind works when it comes to big shit.  But why doesn’t our mind ever consider that one thing that could go right?  Instead of thinking and staying stuck on thoughts like “I could do this and die” or “I could do this and fail” or “What are people going to say and think?” First of all, fuck people and their opinions.  You do that shit for you! Whether you do it or not they gone have some hating ass shit to say any damn way, so fuck ‘em! But why can’t we think and get stuck on “I could do this and have the time of my life” or “ I could do this and be so successful”?  I mean, shit, even if you do fail that’s part of the process right?  Aaliyah said it best…“If at first you don’t succeed” ayyyeee “dust yourself and try again.”  (I am so talking to myself right now) 

For years, I have known I wanted to write.  I have so many ideas and thoughts in my head.  But I have 100% let fear keep me from even trying.  You need an excuse to not do something…I got you!  This shit has haunted me for a minute.  You tell yourself, no one wants to read what you have to say, no one cares, will anyone really benefit from what you have to say, do people even read anymore?  I have thought of every reason to not write, publicly. I swear I’m sitting on a gold mine of ideas. Yes, I’m putting that in the Universe! (I believe so I will see it!!!) Fear is a dirty bitch!

A couple of months ago, my fiancé and I watched the 2017 remake of the movie IT.  I never saw the original but I really enjoyed the remake.  Not only did I enjoy the movie but I got a visual representation of what it looks like to “face your fears”.   That movie spoke to me in a totally different way.  Let’s recap….

There is this clown, Pennywise, who is kidnapping and killing kids.  The clown knows their fears and their desires so he uses both to lure them in. At some point Pennywise fucks with the wrong kid’s little brother.  On a mission to find his missing little brother, ole boy and his friends connect the dots. After doing a little research, they learn this clown comes back every 27 years and the same thing happens. So they want to put an end to it. Ironically, the clown feeds on their fears.  The more afraid they are the more control he has.  In order for them to defeat the clown they each have to face their own fears. Literally. Remember the end of the movie, the clown showed his face as each one of their fears and individually they have to face and fight their fears.  Them facing their fears took away the clowns power so he had to leave.

That was probably a pretty shitty recap, but you get the picture.  If not, go watch the movie. LOL!  Anyway…there were so many lessons in this movie.  It was not just entertainment for me.  I saw something else and was reminded of so much.

If you let it, fear will completely take over and control your mind.  At that point you will see, hear and feel shit that is not real because it has never happened.  You don’t have to think every thought that pops into your head (Joyce Meyer taught me that in her book “Battlefield of the Mind”).  You also do not have to feel every feeling.  You control that shit! The only thing you can control is YOU!  You control how you think and how you feel!  NO ONE ELSE! 

There is so much evil in this world and the enemy knows what scares you.  The enemy will use that shit to control you, if you let it.  The enemy will make your fears seem so BIG!  And the whole time it is keeping you from your greatness.  Fear is distraction to keep from you being you!  How many people are out here not doing what they want because they are afraid? ME! And TONS more!

Again…Fear is a dirty bitch! Fear will haunt the shit out of you.  It wants to break you and control you.  Fear will make you settle for things you don’t want because you too damn scared to face your fear and move forward. Guilty! Fear will have you acting out in ways that are not you.  You don’t want anyone to know you live with fear so may act out as a bully, you may be promiscuous, a liar, thief, murderer, etc. 

You HAVE TO face your fears!  By any means necessary! You can’t just pray about it and wait.  Prayer without works is dead and life without work is dead!  You gotta do something!  The least you can do is try!  Some of the best had to fall a few times, but the fear of falling again or not being successful did not stop them.  You got Rosa Parks, Nelson Mandela, Malcolm X, Colin Kaepernick, Monique’ (yea I said it!) Michael Jordan, Aunt Taraji, Simone Biles, Ibtihaj Muhammad, Serena and Venus, Jay Z, hell Beyonce’ and her group Girl’s Time ( I think that was the name) lost on Star Search…Look at Bey now!  Heeeeyyyyyy!  And there are many, many, many more that had to fall a few times before succeeding. What if they would have quit??

So, this is IT! (Get it? This is IT and I referred to the movie IT! LOL!)  No more fear!  We have to learn and train our minds to accept that we may feel fear, that shit is part of life, but don’t get stuck in fear. And don’t let that shit control you!  As Joyce Meyer says “Do it Afraid!”  Now that’s some real shit!  I know it’s not as simple as reading a blog and being cured of “FEAR” but hopefully this will give you a new way to look at and face your fear.  You never know what you’re capable of until you try! 

FUCK FEAR! AND NEVER GIVE UP!